Day 18

Sorry if anyone wanted to know what's happened in the last 9 days, but those last 9 days have been very similar.  Firstly, after day 12 or so, I started to feel totally normally again.  No more hunger pangs at all and nice amounts of energy.  In fact, more energy than usual.  I can hula hoop longer than ever before! ;p

Also, you really start to get into the routine of not eating.  I feel euphoric at this point.  I feel like I am fully capable of doing anything I want now.  Not eating is so liberating, you wouldn't believe it!  I feel like a million bucks!  I tell ya, the first 10 days are the hardest.  If you can get through that, I think that you can get through to your goal.  That is, if your goal is longer than 10 days! :)

Now for the graphic stuff!  Well, I don't think it's THAT graphic... but let's talk about the real poop I had today!  First off, I haven't been doing much of that at all.  Lots of wateriness.  But today I suddenly had a nice, firm bowel movement.  It was like 6 inches long!  Where in the world did it come from?!!!  I especially wonder because I water fasted yesterday!  I don't know.  But it felt really good to know that the detoxing is really working!!!!!!

 I bought India Organic's Whole Psyllium Husks today and I am really pumped about using it.  I've read psyllium husks do wonders for cleansing the colon!  And India Organic is a fabulous brand.  I also bought triphala capsules online today by them, which I've had before.  Those triphala pills are awesome.  I can't wait to SUPER CLEANSE, Y'ALL!!!!!!! :D

So overall, I think everyone should do a cleanse in their lifetime.  It's a life growth experience!!!!  Your will-power is like a muscle, it gets super strong the more ya use it!  And I think that's the strongest muscle in my body!! ;)  At this point I've lost 23 lbs and my clothes fit so perfectly!!!!!  I was busting out of everything before, feels soooo good to be slimming down.  The scale has been at a standstill all week, but pants that didn't fit at the beginning of the week suddenly fit now.  Even though the scale didn't change.  So don't be so fixated on that number!  I really wish I would have checked my body measurements at the beginning of the fast... But oh well. :/

Raw Vegan Power Y'alllllll!

Day 9

I woke up this morning very weak.  I could barely stand.  Of course my weakest day would be a work day.  That's okay, I know I have to make myself a little juice.  By body needed energy somehow.

I opened up a coconut immediately.  I needed something immediately or else I felt like I could pass out or something.  It took everything I had to crack open that coconut!  But I just kept positive.  That's what this is all about, staying positive.

I took a big ol' sip and it was so sweet!  It was too sweet, actually.  Took another and thought about the energy I was receiving from its life force.  Started cutting some carrots and oranges for juice.  I read that carrot cuts the bile in the stomach.  When I took a sip of the carrot orange juice, it really turned me off.  It was disgustingly sweet.  I halved it with water.  It was still so sweet.  I also made a kiwi and celery and watered it down.

Throughout the day, I forced myself about 8 oz. of each.  I wasn't really feelin' them for some reason.  I am overly sensitive to anything I taste right now.  I also had brewed myself some ginger tea with a little raw honey and lemon.  I could drink that all day, wish I would has brought more.  Taste just like lemon head candy!  MmMmm!

By the end of the day I was pooped.  I managed to have enough energy to get through the day, which was awesome!  As soon as I got home, it disappeared.  I was exhausted.  I checked my facebook and passed the hell out for 7pm!  Hell yeahh, love me some rest!!!  Especially during a fast!  :)

Day 8

Although I initially said I didn't want to weigh myself everyday, it's just too motivating at this point.  I have lost a whopping 14 lbs! :D

I didn't have much planned today, so I decided to water fast again.  All went okay.  I did get some seriously intense hunger pangs.  I felt like they left me with gapping air holes that were just waiting for food.  It got to the point where it was very painful.  I thought about about juicing, but I know this is just a normal side effect of fasting.  So I just went to bed.

Somewhere in the middle of the night I have a memory of a dream.  I can't remember what was going on, but I was nauseous.  I remember feeling really sick.  All of a sudden, I woke up and felt like I was deadly ill.  I realized I was about to puke!  No time to think, I just ran to the bathroom.  I did have just enough time to think, "What can I possibly throw up?!".

I threw up some bile and water.  It was light yellow.  I also had diarrhea.  I didn't know what to think.  I was so tired I just went to bed right after I cleaned my teeth and had a little water.

I read about it first thing the next morning.  Apparently this is just part of the detoxification process.  I was happy to hear that!

All said and done, day 8 was an accomplished day o' fasting!

Day 7

Today is Sunday, the day of rest!  And that's exactly what I did.  I work my butt off on the weekends, so I was exhausted today.  Especially because of the fast.  Due to my exhaustion and complete laziness mixed with my motive of cleansing my body, I decided to water fast today.  The longest I've ever water fasted for was three days.  I lost a bunch of weight and binged on processed foods at the end of the third day. Of course I gained all that weight back.  :/

But not this time!  Something about the juice fast makes it easier to water fast.  I literally didn't do anything today.  I just chilled out and let my body do its thang.

At this point I have lost 12 lbs!

Day 6

Whoa, I feel like I've gotten this far effortlessly!  I've heard the first and last week are the hardest.  I am suddenly not worried about the next 54 days.  I am thinking I can easily do 7 weeks of the same thing.  Only time will tell....

I'll say this, all the people who think you can't do it makes you go into zone mode.  When people are doubting you, it just makes you want to prove them wrong!  And I can tell you I have a lot of doubters super charging my will-powers! ;)

Today was easy breezy.  I am getting used to the routine.  Hunger pangs have gone away and energy is high.  I feel awesome.  I feel light, bright, cheery, sweet, comfortable, clean, proud, accomplished, thin(ner) and just every emotion associated with happiness.  Even though I know I can't do this forever because I am obsessed with food, I am genuinely enjoying our current phase of separation.  I feel like I've been blinded by my true addiction to processed crap and am starting to see true colors flying in all directions.  Especially working in a restaurant and watching other people and their helpless addictions to food.  It's so fucked up.  Why and how is processed food so desirable?  Somehow my desire for funky food has diminished and that's how I am getting through this.  I am listening to my body and ignoring my mind.  My body is busy working hard and is surprisingly not hungry.  

Juice Power!

Day 5

Yay, Day 5!  So let me start out by saying that this juice feast is a beautiful, profound journey everyone should take up at some point their life.  Let me also say that it is also something that takes preparation.  I feel like EVERYTHING in my past has built me up for this moment!  The list goes on and on from my accomplishments, my mistakes and disappointments, my trials and errors, all the knowledge I've learned along the way.  All those times I have cheated on my diet have made me realize how terrible it feels to give up.  So everything is sort of coming together in this whirlpool of ecstasy.  I just feel really good.  I feel good inside and out, feel good about all of me.  I feel good about my choices.  Heck, I don't even regret any bad decisions.  I just literally feel at peace.  BUT, don't let that fool you!  On the flip side of things, really old emotions keep popping up.  I'll find myself in moments of despair, hopelessness, disappointment and distress.  "Yes, I feel empowered now, but can I really last 60 days?"  Then I have to remind myself that 60 days is gonna fly by! :-)

Today I had a whole cantaloupe, my all time favorite.  I will be drinking a trillion of these during my fast.  It's such a treat from Mother Nature. :-))  I also had a blood orange juice and made an orange, carrot and ginger juice.  Couldn't forget to also have some Vitamineral green, which I just mixed with water.  I am really hoping that helps push out all the toxic waste.

Speaking of toxic waste, we are all so clogged up in America.  I work in a kitchen selling typical American cuisine.  I'm talkin' burgers, phillys and a bunch of fried food.  Sometimes people ask me, "What's healthy in here?".  And I look at them like they're crazy!  They might continue on and buy a turkey burger and all I can think is, "They might as well buy a real burger, it's just as terrible for their health!"  Anyway, while people were ordering away with their terrible skin and obvious breathing problems last night, ordering a pile-high plate of fried seafood and fries, all I can think about is all the sludge coming out of my body even though I am not eating anything.  All the sludge comprising the blood of this meat eater who constantly drinks sodas and eats a huge majority of processed foods.  It was really grossing me out.  How could a whole country be so manipulated into living off of completely lifeless food?  And then I am reminded how just days ago I was guzzling liquor and stuffing my own face with terrible professed fucking foods!  UGH!  Just a reminder that processed foods are drugs.  Right now, I almost feel like I am on another plane.  This plane has barely lifted the veil of food lies, but I see right through them.  I think that's why I really haven't been too tempted yet.  The energy of the Universe is coursing through me helping me through this.  Thank You, Universe!

So Day 5 completed, 55 more days to go!  

RAW VEGAN POWER Y'ALLLLLL!!!! :D

P.S. I weighed myself and I have lost 10 lbs!  That's 2 lbs a day!!!!  Yayayay! ;p

Day 4

I am starting to get really into this juice feast.  I went and exercised and had a lot of energy.  I felt like I could hula hoop for eternity.  I have been juicing mono fruits and LOVING IT!  My fav thing right now it to just juice a whole cantaloupe or pineapple or papaya.  So heavenly!  Also loving my savory concoctions of beautiful, alkaline greens.  I also feel very good and clean, confident and I am starting to notice the raw food glow!  I LOVE THE RAW FOOD GLOW SOOO MUCH!

Had a couple of cravings today, but immediately forced my mind to change the topic.  I notice the cravings get reallllllly intense when I dwell on them.

Also, finally got a crazy bowel movement that I am so excited about!  It was maybe half a foot black tar rope from my colon.  Trying not to be graphic, but it smelt like burnt tires.  Pretty intense, toxic waste.  Glad it's gone! #OPTIMAL HEALTH MOTIVATION

Day 4=VICTORY!!!!!! :D :D :D :D